Two years

The big TWO. I have gotten to a point in my life where I realize that I am growing up. 

Backtrack to a younger me, I made plenty of mistakes and I am glad to have had those experience to learn and grow. My beautiful girlfriend entered into my life two years ago, on September 5th, 2015. It all started with an unintentional Skype video chat – I’ll get into details about that at a later time.

With the two years we have been together, I can our relationship is not perfect. We have had fights, unnecessary arguments, and tears shed. We have had wonderful dates, smiles all day, endless laughter, and unconditional love. What we have gone through, these past two year, have built us to where we are now. I have no regrets. I know that being with this girl is the one decision in my life that was right. How do I know? I can feel it in my gut.

Thank you for the wonderful two years, and for many more to come, my beautiful angel. 

Speaking with “higher-ups”

I am happy with the people that lead our team. The sense of them wanting to help you better yourself in your career is amazing. I spoke with a Senior Lead (We can refer to her as Alice) in our Creaive Design department about life and my career and was told to get in contact with her once I gain more experience or I finish school. 

Now that I am back at with the same company, I get contact Alice and she remembers me! We connected on LinkedIn during my internship days and explained to me about the work they were doing at the time, which was 360 integration (with the 360 cameras and such) for shark week. After speaking with her, I was able to get in contact with her Managers and was set an appointment to meet up with my director, the department VPs and Alice!

As I grow older, I understand more about communication and staying in contact with people. It makes sense that networking is another tool to use in life – to help progress. The simple act of speaking to someone, communicating and letting everyone know that you are here and ready to make a difference is powerful. The relationship you build with people really matters, and if you can make an impact, your name will be rememebered. I promise you this.

Happy Hump Day!

Much change in the upcoming month

To those who read my blogs, I thank you for your patience. Don’t get me wrong. No one ever said it was easy to run a blog. Obviously, in order to do so, I must provide content to showcase first. I have been gone for the past week and it’s sad to say that I was fighting to figure out what to do when I found out that my office’s contract was due to expire and our time was growing thin to find another job.

I would like to point out that my luck, throughout my endeavors of life, has assisted me with great generosity. My internship Director, Dan, from when I interned at Discovery during my college years reached out to me in regards to an opportunity. An opportunity that could potentially grow into something bigger. Granted, I currently have a Full-Time job making a decent living and could potentially have another contract to continue work. This opportunity is a contract job with similar pay and Full-time; however, the contract is designated to end in a year.

I had a talk with the director, man to man, in understanding the risk to taking this opportunity. To understand that a job will be presented to me if my work can support the company. That has been always been my purpose in life. To quit the talking and get the work done. I lacked this trait at a young age. As I grew older, I worked on it – building my craft. Currently, it is a habit of mine. I can’t stand 50% effort from myself. I can only push for 100% or bust. I see it like this, you have the time work on yourself in life – whether you want to perfect your body as a body builder, perfect your intelligence with math, science, technology, etc, or perfect your craft, whether art, cooking, etc. What do you do with the time given? I hear many of my classmates, whether on LinkedIn, Facebook, Instagram, etc, say that they are grinding, getting money, and flaunting away. To be honest, I applaud that behavior because of the motivation that “shows”.

However, when nothing is to show for it – it all becomes “talk”. Everyone is going out to party, going to the clubs, buying expensive things that we can’t afford, and for what? Are you really building yourself? My best-friend died at the age of 19. He had his time taken away from him, but he is now in a peaceful place. He always told me to keep working hard, as he did – fighting his cancer. He is always on my mind when I have these moments and it makes me want to see progression from my friends too. I want to help those close to me, as he helped me. I don’t want to see those around me fail. However, I do want the bullshitters to stop with their nonsense and take a step back to think about their life.

Could you work hard now for that trip to another country? yes. Could you go now? yes, if you had the money. But the questions come – will you have money when you get back? Will you have a JOB when you get back? Was it worth the time used?

Depending on your purpose and the way you answer those questions will tell you something. As humans, we sometimes need our asses handed to us before realizing the truth. But don’t be late and regret the things you would’ve accomplished in your life – rather than accomplishing something from your wish-list/bucket-list. Please understand that bucket lists are lists of task to do before you die. If you have watched The Bucket List, you would understand more. You have more time than you think. Make the world better, invent something, save the world, build. Otherwise, those people you paid for your flights, hotel stay, event hosts, etc, are smiling all the way to the bank – retiring at the age of 30 because they worked hard getting your money while you enjoyed their amenities. Stay Woke. Be useful of your time.

Opportunities can come out of nowhere

It’s been a rough few weeks since I have heard about the layoffs at my job. I’m applying left and right, and luckily I got a text from an old friend that interned with me at Discovery. She told me that our old boss was talking about me and was wondering what I was up to. She continued to announce that he had a bit of work for me and wanted to see if I was interested. Obviously, I was.

Its crazy to know that I was on the brink of freaking out because of the constant search for other work opportunities. I guess this is God’s way of saying “Take it easy man. You are still young.” I smiled as I saw the message.

Nonetheless, this is still just an opportunity that will hopefully provide a higher salary for the work. Of course, if I am not blessed with higher pay – I must make the decision to continue my search or to bite the bullet and take the job. In my mind, I am more confident to find better opportunities for similar or more pay if this opportunity is unable to provide that for me. Lets hope that this one is a keeper.

Be open to decisions and understand

You will experience forms of negativity throughout your life. You will be afraid and that’s okay. There are others that share the same experience. Unfortunately, very few suppress the negativity. Instead, they reinforce it. There is no benefit. There is no purpose. There is only disappointment. You will never understand why it “needs” to be reinforced.

Fuck them. It’s cancer; how these people exist and think it is okay. Don’t confuse negativity with criticism or debate. There are always improvements that are necessary or valid points that are being made. But, to those who just think that everything you know or do is what everyone wants or thinks – that’s sad.

Not everything I say or do is correct. That’s okay, I’m open to hear what people think. I will try to understand you, as you, hopefully, try to understand me, and this is where a decision can develop. You can still choose to support your side, or you can choose the other. Either way, there is no wrong answer as long as you respect those who don’t have the same choice as you do. This shouldn’t result in hatred, fear, anger, or any correlated feelings. Just understand, and be able to move on. It’s okay. You have finally begun to understand why someone doesn’t want what you want.

Lets move away from negativity.

Decisions. Sometimes hard to make, many times very easy. But have you ever feel a time where you made a decision that you didn’t make yourself? As a kid, choosing your starting 5 when playing basketball at recess, or maybe what type of friends you want to have?

I feel like I was lucky. I met this goofy kid, while working in retail, but we worked different departments. I usually like to say hello to the new people who get hired because it helps with the communication as work (Which is necessary 100% of the time). Who knew that I would end up friends with this guy through a video game; in fact, a game that I never wanted at first. Destiny, on the midnight release, was bigger than I thought. Lots of people came into the store and purchased the game. We happened to sell a lot of energy drinks too (Not surprised). At the end of the shift, my coworkers went to buy their copies and recommended that I should get it. As reluctant as I was, I didn’t want to buy it. However, I somehow became very open to getting the game once I found out almost all of my coworkers had it. So, I said screw it…. and we played 15 hours straight. Dumbest and best decision I ever made.

Back to the goofy kid, we became better friends and was able to get to know his group of friends. The one thing that brought them all together? Cars. Another thing I was skeptical about. I loved cars as a kid and unfortunately lost interest growing up. However, after seeing everyone very happy and proud of the cars they owned, i said screw it… bought a new car the following day and never looked back. Long story short, those group of friends are now my very good friends and it’s nice to share a common interest.

Sure, I did make the decision to do all of these things; However, I also didn’t make any decisions at all – where I pretty much went with the flow. I was open to decision at these times, where I built my own curiosity. The “What if?” thing. Don’t be afraid to go with the flow. Sometimes, a decision is being made in front of you – and you unconsciously force a different decision. Be open to decisions, and understand those decisions. To the decision that you didn’t make, understand that decision and why you didn’t choose that one. Either way, you have made a decision and you continue on with life. Easy processes, no negativity, happy life.

Alone

Many times in life, I have moments of feeling alone. It could be on bad days, and even good days. Why do I let this happen to myself? The real question is, what can I do to make me happy?

As I stare at my phone, I begin to overthink about my life. Will I really make my parents proud, will I get to have a family, will I make a good living where I can support myself and my family, will I be happy? 

I see myself in the reflection of a bathroom mirror and I see hope. I see a guy that has gotten this far in life and that can continue to do more if he tries. I can see happiness. I just can’t feel it.

I have met many people who hide themselves from the fact that they are vulnerable – that they are really scared. I’m scared too. I’m scared of not having a better future. And that’s okay. 

I think back to history class in high school. King Leonidas and the fierce 300 in the Battle of Thermopylae. They faced much worse. The is no way in hell that they weren’t scared but they fought anyways because they knew the bigger picture. They have the future depending on them, Sparta depending on them, family depending on them. They fought till there was no more fight in them. 

I’m writing to say that I am scared, but I can fight through it. This is weak shit. I need to pick myself up and move forward once again. I will have to fight this feeling everyday but I know it’ll be worth it. I can work hard for my happiness. Best of all, I have a family and a group of amazing friends that I know will and has always supported me. I can be happy. A little faith can bring you a long way. 

You are never alone. It’s time to pick up the pace.

My biggest fan

Mom.

I don’t believe there can be an end to show you how much I appreciate you. 

You brought me into this world 22 years ago. From what I have learned growing up, that, itself, was a very difficult task. Even before that, you faced the difficulties of learning the customs of a new country. A couple of dollars to your name and a goal, that’s all you needed. 

You escaped Vietnam several times and got your break. Unfortunately, it wasn’t easy to get settled in America with no work experience. You found a few jobs – many to which you didn’t enjoy, but you worked hard. You didn’t have time for us because you were trying to work to keep food on the table. We all understood.

Growing up and going to school had many weird moments. Kids would complain because they didn’t get the right juice in their lunch box or didn’t get a new set of clothes for school. I didn’t want to put that negativity in our lives, so I made the best of everything. Fast forward to when I got my first job. I must admit, it was pretty difficult to know that I had to pay bills at a young age. I never understood in the beginning; however, I kept reminding myself the times you took care of my brothers and I. I was even lucky enough to have friends that work and pay bills and understood where I was coming from. I received a lot of motivation in my life and I couldn’t let my mom down.

Most importantly, my older brother had been the person to push me and guide me to growing up at an early age. He tells me that everything will be okay and continues to motivate me to this day. In the end, I kept asking myself, If my mother and my older brother can do it, why can’t I?

In time, things did get better.

You have gone through a lot; From escaping communism, to adjusting to the customs of a new world, to learning the language, to taking care of 4 boys, to working three jobs to making ends meet, and now finally retired.

Don’t worry mom, you have done more than enough. It’s our turn. I love you so much and I am proud to say that I am your son. You have always been the perfect fan.

What’s to come

Yesterday. A memory for us all now. We never know how the future will be for us all. We can only try our best today so that we can look back to a memorable yesterday and a brighter tomorrow. 

Tomorrow. Things can never happen if we keep telling ourselves that we will try our best “tomorrow.” That’s not good enough. You are lying to yourself. Eventually, tomorrow may never come. And you will regret it. I have, plenty times in my life. One after the other, my opportunities passed by as someone else was willing to say “today.” Enough is enough. This is my word. 

Today. This is my path, and this has given me a pace. Better late than never. Get up, be prepared for what’s to come, and execute. You may stumble upon some difficulties through the day, and that is okay. These are obstacles that will pave the road for tomorrow. The rest, they say, is history.

Stay tuned.

Mark, his words

Good day, to all that graduated from Harvard University. Congratulations! An achievement like this should be celebrated and rewarded. Even better, those who were able to listen to Mark Zuckerberg give his commencement speech were treated with a blessing.

Knowledge is something that can always be obtained. There is no end to the knowledge that the world possesses for us. However, what is this knowledge worth if it isn’t used to make someone else’s life better? Mark Zuckerburg’s (I’ll refer to him as Mark for the remainder of this story) first quote covers the whole topic of this story:

Create not to make progress,
but to make purpose.

– Mark Zuckerberg 

It’s natural for us to want something for ourselves. That is our natural instinct. My work, my life, my money. That’s okay.

Mark wanted to capitalize more on the topic but explaining how this generation will have its defining works. I agree, many jobs will soon be automated, will require new skills, and will require much more empathy. What do you mean? It’s fairly clear if you take the time to understand the issue today. The world is changing drastically, as you read – climate change and the rise in discrimination. 

Work should always evolve. As we move into a more advanced technological future, there are more discoveries of methods towards making the world a greener place. Solar panels, electric cars, etc. We must move away from the old and bring the new. What’s worse, we could be holding back the key to our future by causation of limitation.

It’s terrible to hear stories of hate, for example, an African American individual being stabbed to death by another Caucasian American, just days before graduation. American. I used one word to declare the identity of these two individuals. Instead of the hate, why can’t we learn to help one another, to succeed as individuals so that we may succeed as a country. Only we, as humans in this world, can build a better world so that our grandchildrens’ children will be able to look back in history and dream for an even better future. To have the opportunities of going to school without descrimination. To have opportunity to work without descrimination. To live without descrimination. In order to make a change, we must be able to work together instead of  worrying more about another persons skin color, the way they dress, or the way they speak. To work as one. 

At the end of the day, the world will decay with hate unless we change for the better. We can stop the negativity and maybe, just maybe, that one day we will have a solution to problems. The world limits itself when a life is taken, when someone isn’t able to receive an education, or when no opportunists are given. Les brown, an amazingly strong and well-spoken motivational speaker says:

The graveyard is the richest place on earth, because it is here that you will find all the hope and dreams that were never fulfilled, the books that were never written, the songs that were never sung, the inventions that were never shared, the cures that were never discovered….

– Les Brown

If you have heard this before, this was meant for those who were afraid to take a leap of faith, to get their foot in the door, and to make an effort. But no. I believe this saying goes deeper than just that. Maybe that kid that was stabbed to death could’ve been the man who could change the world – but we will never know because we have created a limitation for him. Stopped him from doing so because his life has experienced an unfortunate end. Stop the limitations, help one another, and learn to make a purpose together.

Change starts locally

-Mark Zuckerberg

It can start in our neighborhood, to the cities, and eventually reach to the world. It’s as simple as simple can get. Why do we make it so hard for each other? Why must we teach a younger generation that it’s okay to just take this shit. It’s disgusting and humiliating as a race, the human race, to induce hatred. As I digress, it must be known that it isn’t too late. We can stop it now. Let’s change the world for the good.  For the better. Again, great speech Mark. May the world take this message and share your emotions so that one day, we can all feel safe in harmony – in this world.

Tomato Soup

6 months. At this job. I enjoy my environment!

Stopped by the Cafe today and was asked for what I was looking to eat today. Typically, this week, I would order the soup of the week to help me cope with my coughing. As I go to pay, the lady of the counter has told me that I don’t have to pay and to enjoy the soup.

At first, I thought I feel asleep at my desk because this never happens. She understood the stress I was undergoing with the sickness and she asked if I could only pay it forward. I am appalled. She doesn’t know my name, or anything about me but was willing to offer me the soup (and extra saltine crackers! *cue happiness*).

It comes to show that there are people in this world willing to care for others. 

Keep fighting on, and don’t give up hope. Crappy days do happen to everyone and there will be times that you feel like you should need to go on any further. You would ask yourself “What’s the point?” Or “Does it even matter?” Which, the truth is, you know the answers to these questions. They are rhetorical, but you hope to have someone answer the questions for you.

The world isn’t all that cold. Escape from your box and find those answers, because at the end of the day – the lady will be waiting, to give you your soup.