Be open to decisions and understand

You will experience forms of negativity throughout your life. You will be afraid and that’s okay. There are others that share the same experience. Unfortunately, very few suppress the negativity. Instead, they reinforce it. There is no benefit. There is no purpose. There is only disappointment. You will never understand why it “needs” to be reinforced.

Fuck them. It’s cancer; how these people exist and think it is okay. Don’t confuse negativity with criticism or debate. There are always improvements that are necessary or valid points that are being made. But, to those who just think that everything you know or do is what everyone wants or thinks – that’s sad.

Not everything I say or do is correct. That’s okay, I’m open to hear what people think. I will try to understand you, as you, hopefully, try to understand me, and this is where a decision can develop. You can still choose to support your side, or you can choose the other. Either way, there is no wrong answer as long as you respect those who don’t have the same choice as you do. This shouldn’t result in hatred, fear, anger, or any correlated feelings. Just understand, and be able to move on. It’s okay. You have finally begun to understand why someone doesn’t want what you want.

Lets move away from negativity.

Decisions. Sometimes hard to make, many times very easy. But have you ever feel a time where you made a decision that you didn’t make yourself? As a kid, choosing your starting 5 when playing basketball at recess, or maybe what type of friends you want to have?

I feel like I was lucky. I met this goofy kid, while working in retail, but we worked different departments. I usually like to say hello to the new people who get hired because it helps with the communication as work (Which is necessary 100% of the time). Who knew that I would end up friends with this guy through a video game; in fact, a game that I never wanted at first. Destiny, on the midnight release, was bigger than I thought. Lots of people came into the store and purchased the game. We happened to sell a lot of energy drinks too (Not surprised). At the end of the shift, my coworkers went to buy their copies and recommended that I should get it. As reluctant as I was, I didn’t want to buy it. However, I somehow became very open to getting the game once I found out almost all of my coworkers had it. So, I said screw it…. and we played 15 hours straight. Dumbest and best decision I ever made.

Back to the goofy kid, we became better friends and was able to get to know his group of friends. The one thing that brought them all together? Cars. Another thing I was skeptical about. I loved cars as a kid and unfortunately lost interest growing up. However, after seeing everyone very happy and proud of the cars they owned, i said screw it… bought a new car the following day and never looked back. Long story short, those group of friends are now my very good friends and it’s nice to share a common interest.

Sure, I did make the decision to do all of these things; However, I also didn’t make any decisions at all – where I pretty much went with the flow. I was open to decision at these times, where I built my own curiosity. The “What if?” thing. Don’t be afraid to go with the flow. Sometimes, a decision is being made in front of you – and you unconsciously force a different decision. Be open to decisions, and understand those decisions. To the decision that you didn’t make, understand that decision and why you didn’t choose that one. Either way, you have made a decision and you continue on with life. Easy processes, no negativity, happy life.

Scooters

Having a great time with these 50cc scooters! For those of you that aren’t familiar to the cc measurement – it isn’t that fast of a scooter. However, it is very fun to ride! 

6 of us riding down to Fort Lauderdale and the view is amazing! I wish I stopped by a took a picture but we were on the move.

Best part, all 6 scooters costed less than $200 for the whole day! Groupon is GOAT.

As I lay here, FaceTiming the love of my life – I am missing home. And the fact that I have car parts waiting for me to install once I get back. Tomorrow will be a better day – my older brother’s is growing a year older and that means lots of food and fun! I guess I will say it early, but…. happy birthday big bro!

Maki Ramen 

This is the first time I have eaten ramen, besides out of a styrofoam cup. It looked very close to what you would see in Naruto. Especially those Narutomaki, those fancy pink and white swirl pads,  it’s fish paste that takes pretty good.

A whole bowl of soup, ramen, mushrooms, half a boiled egg, bulgogi, and a strip of seaweed wrap. One must be crazy to not eat this delicacy.

Maki is quite small, the size of a boba shop, but with all the amazing flavors. This might be our designated ramen shop (I’m lying. I’m always willing to try other places).

If you are in the area, give it a try!

My biggest fan

Mom.

I don’t believe there can be an end to show you how much I appreciate you. 

You brought me into this world 22 years ago. From what I have learned growing up, that, itself, was a very difficult task. Even before that, you faced the difficulties of learning the customs of a new country. A couple of dollars to your name and a goal, that’s all you needed. 

You escaped Vietnam several times and got your break. Unfortunately, it wasn’t easy to get settled in America with no work experience. You found a few jobs – many to which you didn’t enjoy, but you worked hard. You didn’t have time for us because you were trying to work to keep food on the table. We all understood.

Growing up and going to school had many weird moments. Kids would complain because they didn’t get the right juice in their lunch box or didn’t get a new set of clothes for school. I didn’t want to put that negativity in our lives, so I made the best of everything. Fast forward to when I got my first job. I must admit, it was pretty difficult to know that I had to pay bills at a young age. I never understood in the beginning; however, I kept reminding myself the times you took care of my brothers and I. I was even lucky enough to have friends that work and pay bills and understood where I was coming from. I received a lot of motivation in my life and I couldn’t let my mom down.

Most importantly, my older brother had been the person to push me and guide me to growing up at an early age. He tells me that everything will be okay and continues to motivate me to this day. In the end, I kept asking myself, If my mother and my older brother can do it, why can’t I?

In time, things did get better.

You have gone through a lot; From escaping communism, to adjusting to the customs of a new world, to learning the language, to taking care of 4 boys, to working three jobs to making ends meet, and now finally retired.

Don’t worry mom, you have done more than enough. It’s our turn. I love you so much and I am proud to say that I am your son. You have always been the perfect fan.

What’s to come

Yesterday. A memory for us all now. We never know how the future will be for us all. We can only try our best today so that we can look back to a memorable yesterday and a brighter tomorrow. 

Tomorrow. Things can never happen if we keep telling ourselves that we will try our best “tomorrow.” That’s not good enough. You are lying to yourself. Eventually, tomorrow may never come. And you will regret it. I have, plenty times in my life. One after the other, my opportunities passed by as someone else was willing to say “today.” Enough is enough. This is my word. 

Today. This is my path, and this has given me a pace. Better late than never. Get up, be prepared for what’s to come, and execute. You may stumble upon some difficulties through the day, and that is okay. These are obstacles that will pave the road for tomorrow. The rest, they say, is history.

Stay tuned.

Story time

I hope for those who are following along start to realize that I name every post a “story.” It’s not that I don’t like the word blog, or post, or elaborate essay – but it’s something I believe can differ from others and their writing. Many people have different way of naming their work.

I mean, you don’t see people calling Leonardo Di Vinci’s paintings “drawings.” It’s an art, which many seem to refer to them as “masterpieces.”

This is my art. I am working on my writing and getting better – day by day. I enjoy it completely because it helps me throw my thoughts into meaning rather than keep it bottled up. It isn’t healthy. As of now, it feels like I can reach out to many people and possibly connect more personally.

These stories are all real. They are personal, they happen in real time, and they exist. Some are good and some are bad, but that is life. There is Yin, and there is Yang. The balance of life. There are times where it’ll just be days of relaxation, but i want to share it with you because what I go through in life can certainly be similar to many of you reading. If you are comfortable with talking to me about the good and the bad in your life, reach out to someone – to me. Keep the conversations flowing. Life without communication is meaningless.

Thank you for your support – and I hope you all continue to enjoy my stories.

Tomato Soup

6 months. At this job. I enjoy my environment!

Stopped by the Cafe today and was asked for what I was looking to eat today. Typically, this week, I would order the soup of the week to help me cope with my coughing. As I go to pay, the lady of the counter has told me that I don’t have to pay and to enjoy the soup.

At first, I thought I feel asleep at my desk because this never happens. She understood the stress I was undergoing with the sickness and she asked if I could only pay it forward. I am appalled. She doesn’t know my name, or anything about me but was willing to offer me the soup (and extra saltine crackers! *cue happiness*).

It comes to show that there are people in this world willing to care for others. 

Keep fighting on, and don’t give up hope. Crappy days do happen to everyone and there will be times that you feel like you should need to go on any further. You would ask yourself “What’s the point?” Or “Does it even matter?” Which, the truth is, you know the answers to these questions. They are rhetorical, but you hope to have someone answer the questions for you.

The world isn’t all that cold. Escape from your box and find those answers, because at the end of the day – the lady will be waiting, to give you your soup.

What is the right path for my life?

We are all brought into this earth with different opportunities. Many have parents who can provide for them, parents who are working multiple jobs to put food on the table or to make ends meet, don’t have any parents at all, and the list goes on. You hear stories of princesses and princes in the world and you want to be just like them. Unfortunately, this life isn’t too much of a fairy tale.

Fuck that. This life can be anything we want it to be. However, we must be able to follow our path and our pace. These are my two keys of advice, for all of my readers, to get through your day, month,  year, and lifetime. I’m speaking mainly to the majority of the people who have no idea what they want to do with their lives. Don’t you worry, I was there too. 

“My path, my pace

I wanted to be many things growing up. I wanted to be a physical therapist, a skateboarder, a lacrosse player, a singer, a YouTuber (for video games), and a programmer. I was lucky enough to find my passion in computers and… well…. programming looked me in the face and told me to search no more….