Alone

Many times in life, I have moments of feeling alone. It could be on bad days, and even good days. Why do I let this happen to myself? The real question is, what can I do to make me happy?

As I stare at my phone, I begin to overthink about my life. Will I really make my parents proud, will I get to have a family, will I make a good living where I can support myself and my family, will I be happy? 

I see myself in the reflection of a bathroom mirror and I see hope. I see a guy that has gotten this far in life and that can continue to do more if he tries. I can see happiness. I just can’t feel it.

I have met many people who hide themselves from the fact that they are vulnerable – that they are really scared. I’m scared too. I’m scared of not having a better future. And that’s okay. 

I think back to history class in high school. King Leonidas and the fierce 300 in the Battle of Thermopylae. They faced much worse. The is no way in hell that they weren’t scared but they fought anyways because they knew the bigger picture. They have the future depending on them, Sparta depending on them, family depending on them. They fought till there was no more fight in them. 

I’m writing to say that I am scared, but I can fight through it. This is weak shit. I need to pick myself up and move forward once again. I will have to fight this feeling everyday but I know it’ll be worth it. I can work hard for my happiness. Best of all, I have a family and a group of amazing friends that I know will and has always supported me. I can be happy. A little faith can bring you a long way. 

You are never alone. It’s time to pick up the pace.

A weekend with the bros.

This week, like every other week, has had it’s ups and downs; however, this week has been quite exciting so far.

I have just ordered my new set of coilovers for my car and they are arriving tomorrow (2 day shipping for FREE, special thanks to Alex at coilovers360)! I get to see my friends, this weekend, to assist me with installing them. When you work almost 65-70 hours per week – you tend to appreciate these times. 

Friends are hard to come by nowadays. You either have those who want to see you succeed, and you have those who play the loyalty card – telling you that you don’t even care about them because you don’t go out to a party with them, or go to lunch with them. Your friends should understand the sacrifices you are making to make ends meet. The ones who understand also know what it is like, or is going through it as well.

Cherish these people. You will live a life knowing that you aren’t doing this alone.