Episode 175

Please do not read this is you are planning to watch the Naruto series! I warn you, there are plenty of spoilers below.

Naruto. A name you hear about a lot when kids speak about it, or maybe a millennial brings up their childhood, or maybe you just love eating Ramen. Either way, you may have heard this name once or twice in your life.

Yep, Naruto Uzumaki. This show has really shown a lot of imagery that could very well mirror the everyday events of today – almost as if it was foreshadowed by the creators. Nonetheless, the positive messages taught in this show give it its full value and is what makes this anime a great one to watch.

For those who are currently watching, keep going. For those who haven’t started, give it a chance. You’ll see it more than just a cartoon, but as a show with meaning. The episode I quote above made me truly believe in the power of Naruto’s story and how it can relate to the everyday struggles of depression.

Depression can be derive from any source. This could be from a breakup you had, maybe you just got let go of work, maybe you are anxious about how you look and you think people don’t like you. Sometimes it’s a battle against yourself. Naruto, as a child, has to face this reality. A boy who grew up with no parents and was a delinquent. He made trouble and started to act up because all he wanted was attention. Most of his classmates will never understand his true feelings because they have the blessing of parents that take care of them and motivate them.

In today’s society, we never take into account about what other people might be going through – whether they shows signs of depression or not. Naruto learned to hold a smile in the midst of all of the hatred he received. Kids called him weird, dumb, stupid, for what? Because he didn’t have parents? This isn’t a choice that children get to have. Naruto didn’t. I didn’t. My brothers haven’t. Many of my friends haven’t. It starts off tough.

Specifically and Metaphorically, Naruto fights “Pain” as his enemy in episode 175. Pain is a character whom was a refugee during the great ninja war (could be compared to world war 1). He fended for him and his friends, stealing food to eat, living in caves, etc. Anything he could do to help l, he would. He lost his parents during the Great War, where as a group of The enemy Shinobi (Ninja) broke into their home, although it was clear that the Pain and the family should have vacated the war zone. Pain and his family heard the Shinobi plundering any food they could find in the kitchen. Attempting to sneak out of the home, Pain accidentally alerted the ninja by knocking over a vase as they were escaping. Cautious, the Shinobi rushes to the noise and found his family. Pain’s father attempts to protect the family and gets stabbed in the chest in the process. The mother was later killed and Pain was next. Luckily, Pain has a secret power that worked to kill these Shinobi – the power of the rinnegan. The power of the rinnegan has been told to have similar powers of god, which can be used for destruction or creation, just by the force of power coming from the holder of this power.

Fast forward, back to the fight between Naruto and Pain, Naruto fights and fights and is able to weaken Pain to the point of death. Naruto falls back. He understands that hate is not the correct way to settle things in this world because “hate brings more hate”. Instead, Naruto fought Pain’s with the power of his words. Naruto spoke with Pain, Sympathizes with Pain, and proves to Pain about the dangers of how the world may be if pain and Hatred drives the world. Pain has already killed the many people that Naruto knows and loves and is able to still sympathize with Pain. On his final breath, Pain uses his powers to bring all of the dead back to life. Those who fought against Pain during the fight, who died, has been given a second chance at life.

This is a fictional story. There are times where people may want to hurt or kill, in this world, because they are getting picked on, harassed, or disposed. For those who are currently experiencing this, please keep your head up. Not a day goes by where I look back into the times where I felt this weird feeling… Even in middle school, where I had friends, and still felt as if no one cared. To this day, I am past college and have a small group of friends that loves the things I love. Most importantly, they care, the understand, and they motivate. They are like the friends I have always wished for in my life. Even better, I have a girlfriend who not only wants to better herself, but to better me as well. Not a day goes by where I felt this weird feeling….. of pain and overcome the depths and evil of pain to understand that happiness is found by the little things. Your little group of friends, your relationship, a fun car, etc. Thank you Pain, and most importantly, thank you Happiness.

Just in time for Halloween

I had a wonderful time with my girlfriend this weekend! I had dinner with her family, had plenty of time to study, and even fit in time to finally take care of the “bouncing” issue my car had.

I do apologize for the lack of posts, I have been using a lot of time to work on my programming and I have done more work in two weeks than I could ever do in a semester in class. Needless to say, I have plenty of stories to tell.

I hope everyone has been enjoying life so far and thank you for your patience!

Two years

The big TWO. I have gotten to a point in my life where I realize that I am growing up. 

Backtrack to a younger me, I made plenty of mistakes and I am glad to have had those experience to learn and grow. My beautiful girlfriend entered into my life two years ago, on September 5th, 2015. It all started with an unintentional Skype video chat – I’ll get into details about that at a later time.

With the two years we have been together, I can our relationship is not perfect. We have had fights, unnecessary arguments, and tears shed. We have had wonderful dates, smiles all day, endless laughter, and unconditional love. What we have gone through, these past two year, have built us to where we are now. I have no regrets. I know that being with this girl is the one decision in my life that was right. How do I know? I can feel it in my gut.

Thank you for the wonderful two years, and for many more to come, my beautiful angel. 

Scared and deserve it.

My wake up call of a lifetime. Many awkward conversations. One realization. People don’t deserve negativity in life, no matter who you are. 

Love and positivity is what this world needs. It starts with decisions in life. These decisions should not be taken lightly. Bad decision can create unnecessary situations. I try to make the best decisions in life with what I have. Somehow, I feel as if I do no good. I wish of a better day, today. I’ll feel better in time. I just need to get through this current speedbump.

Be open to decisions and understand

You will experience forms of negativity throughout your life. You will be afraid and that’s okay. There are others that share the same experience. Unfortunately, very few suppress the negativity. Instead, they reinforce it. There is no benefit. There is no purpose. There is only disappointment. You will never understand why it “needs” to be reinforced.

Fuck them. It’s cancer; how these people exist and think it is okay. Don’t confuse negativity with criticism or debate. There are always improvements that are necessary or valid points that are being made. But, to those who just think that everything you know or do is what everyone wants or thinks – that’s sad.

Not everything I say or do is correct. That’s okay, I’m open to hear what people think. I will try to understand you, as you, hopefully, try to understand me, and this is where a decision can develop. You can still choose to support your side, or you can choose the other. Either way, there is no wrong answer as long as you respect those who don’t have the same choice as you do. This shouldn’t result in hatred, fear, anger, or any correlated feelings. Just understand, and be able to move on. It’s okay. You have finally begun to understand why someone doesn’t want what you want.

Lets move away from negativity.

Decisions. Sometimes hard to make, many times very easy. But have you ever feel a time where you made a decision that you didn’t make yourself? As a kid, choosing your starting 5 when playing basketball at recess, or maybe what type of friends you want to have?

I feel like I was lucky. I met this goofy kid, while working in retail, but we worked different departments. I usually like to say hello to the new people who get hired because it helps with the communication as work (Which is necessary 100% of the time). Who knew that I would end up friends with this guy through a video game; in fact, a game that I never wanted at first. Destiny, on the midnight release, was bigger than I thought. Lots of people came into the store and purchased the game. We happened to sell a lot of energy drinks too (Not surprised). At the end of the shift, my coworkers went to buy their copies and recommended that I should get it. As reluctant as I was, I didn’t want to buy it. However, I somehow became very open to getting the game once I found out almost all of my coworkers had it. So, I said screw it…. and we played 15 hours straight. Dumbest and best decision I ever made.

Back to the goofy kid, we became better friends and was able to get to know his group of friends. The one thing that brought them all together? Cars. Another thing I was skeptical about. I loved cars as a kid and unfortunately lost interest growing up. However, after seeing everyone very happy and proud of the cars they owned, i said screw it… bought a new car the following day and never looked back. Long story short, those group of friends are now my very good friends and it’s nice to share a common interest.

Sure, I did make the decision to do all of these things; However, I also didn’t make any decisions at all – where I pretty much went with the flow. I was open to decision at these times, where I built my own curiosity. The “What if?” thing. Don’t be afraid to go with the flow. Sometimes, a decision is being made in front of you – and you unconsciously force a different decision. Be open to decisions, and understand those decisions. To the decision that you didn’t make, understand that decision and why you didn’t choose that one. Either way, you have made a decision and you continue on with life. Easy processes, no negativity, happy life.

Scooters

Having a great time with these 50cc scooters! For those of you that aren’t familiar to the cc measurement – it isn’t that fast of a scooter. However, it is very fun to ride! 

6 of us riding down to Fort Lauderdale and the view is amazing! I wish I stopped by a took a picture but we were on the move.

Best part, all 6 scooters costed less than $200 for the whole day! Groupon is GOAT.

As I lay here, FaceTiming the love of my life – I am missing home. And the fact that I have car parts waiting for me to install once I get back. Tomorrow will be a better day – my older brother’s is growing a year older and that means lots of food and fun! I guess I will say it early, but…. happy birthday big bro!

Family reunion

We made it! It’s not as sunny as we thought it would be. It’s raining. It’s pouring. More or less, there are old men snoring.

The beach house is wonderful, because we are near the shore and say hi to the people to boat down the strip. The best part to this vacation, is that our labradoodle is getting so much attention from tourists and locals. He loves it so much! Crazy enough, he has been spoiled a lot – with a $12 meal as the record so far. But, we love him. He’s family and we all eat good.

Today is a simple day – we travel down to south beach to have lunch with the whole family and take a boat tour of the city. The only thing that can top today, is if Bernice from South Beach Tow comes and we get her autograph!

Maki Ramen 

This is the first time I have eaten ramen, besides out of a styrofoam cup. It looked very close to what you would see in Naruto. Especially those Narutomaki, those fancy pink and white swirl pads,  it’s fish paste that takes pretty good.

A whole bowl of soup, ramen, mushrooms, half a boiled egg, bulgogi, and a strip of seaweed wrap. One must be crazy to not eat this delicacy.

Maki is quite small, the size of a boba shop, but with all the amazing flavors. This might be our designated ramen shop (I’m lying. I’m always willing to try other places).

If you are in the area, give it a try!

Lardarius Webb Charity Softball Game

Football players playing softball. Quite the show, but a very fun time indeed! The charity helps support family’s with low income/homeless and help with food, finding shelter, paying bills, etc.

It’s good to give. 

Thank you Baltimore Ravens for the awesome game and I hope the best for this upcoming season! All in all, I hope everyone enjoyed their weekend!

Vacation time

Good Lordy, the moment is coming near. A week of no stress, a loud family, lots of food, and good times. 

Come to think of it, I haven’t seen my whole family in a while. I’m sure I’ll be playing 21 questions with them all vacation. Where do you work now? Do you have a girlfriend? How is she? When are you going to get married so we can go to a wedding?

People say that these type of questions annoy them… to the point where they have memes specifically for these questions! I like it when I am asked about my life. It gives the satisfaction of knowing that my family cares about what’s going on in my life.

Family. Don’t take them for granted. Gotta love em.