Lardarius Webb Charity Softball Game

Football players playing softball. Quite the show, but a very fun time indeed! The charity helps support family’s with low income/homeless and help with food, finding shelter, paying bills, etc.

It’s good to give. 

Thank you Baltimore Ravens for the awesome game and I hope the best for this upcoming season! All in all, I hope everyone enjoyed their weekend!

Alone

Many times in life, I have moments of feeling alone. It could be on bad days, and even good days. Why do I let this happen to myself? The real question is, what can I do to make me happy?

As I stare at my phone, I begin to overthink about my life. Will I really make my parents proud, will I get to have a family, will I make a good living where I can support myself and my family, will I be happy? 

I see myself in the reflection of a bathroom mirror and I see hope. I see a guy that has gotten this far in life and that can continue to do more if he tries. I can see happiness. I just can’t feel it.

I have met many people who hide themselves from the fact that they are vulnerable – that they are really scared. I’m scared too. I’m scared of not having a better future. And that’s okay. 

I think back to history class in high school. King Leonidas and the fierce 300 in the Battle of Thermopylae. They faced much worse. The is no way in hell that they weren’t scared but they fought anyways because they knew the bigger picture. They have the future depending on them, Sparta depending on them, family depending on them. They fought till there was no more fight in them. 

I’m writing to say that I am scared, but I can fight through it. This is weak shit. I need to pick myself up and move forward once again. I will have to fight this feeling everyday but I know it’ll be worth it. I can work hard for my happiness. Best of all, I have a family and a group of amazing friends that I know will and has always supported me. I can be happy. A little faith can bring you a long way. 

You are never alone. It’s time to pick up the pace.

My biggest fan

Mom.

I don’t believe there can be an end to show you how much I appreciate you. 

You brought me into this world 22 years ago. From what I have learned growing up, that, itself, was a very difficult task. Even before that, you faced the difficulties of learning the customs of a new country. A couple of dollars to your name and a goal, that’s all you needed. 

You escaped Vietnam several times and got your break. Unfortunately, it wasn’t easy to get settled in America with no work experience. You found a few jobs – many to which you didn’t enjoy, but you worked hard. You didn’t have time for us because you were trying to work to keep food on the table. We all understood.

Growing up and going to school had many weird moments. Kids would complain because they didn’t get the right juice in their lunch box or didn’t get a new set of clothes for school. I didn’t want to put that negativity in our lives, so I made the best of everything. Fast forward to when I got my first job. I must admit, it was pretty difficult to know that I had to pay bills at a young age. I never understood in the beginning; however, I kept reminding myself the times you took care of my brothers and I. I was even lucky enough to have friends that work and pay bills and understood where I was coming from. I received a lot of motivation in my life and I couldn’t let my mom down.

Most importantly, my older brother had been the person to push me and guide me to growing up at an early age. He tells me that everything will be okay and continues to motivate me to this day. In the end, I kept asking myself, If my mother and my older brother can do it, why can’t I?

In time, things did get better.

You have gone through a lot; From escaping communism, to adjusting to the customs of a new world, to learning the language, to taking care of 4 boys, to working three jobs to making ends meet, and now finally retired.

Don’t worry mom, you have done more than enough. It’s our turn. I love you so much and I am proud to say that I am your son. You have always been the perfect fan.

What’s to come

Yesterday. A memory for us all now. We never know how the future will be for us all. We can only try our best today so that we can look back to a memorable yesterday and a brighter tomorrow. 

Tomorrow. Things can never happen if we keep telling ourselves that we will try our best “tomorrow.” That’s not good enough. You are lying to yourself. Eventually, tomorrow may never come. And you will regret it. I have, plenty times in my life. One after the other, my opportunities passed by as someone else was willing to say “today.” Enough is enough. This is my word. 

Today. This is my path, and this has given me a pace. Better late than never. Get up, be prepared for what’s to come, and execute. You may stumble upon some difficulties through the day, and that is okay. These are obstacles that will pave the road for tomorrow. The rest, they say, is history.

Stay tuned.

Mark, his words

Good day, to all that graduated from Harvard University. Congratulations! An achievement like this should be celebrated and rewarded. Even better, those who were able to listen to Mark Zuckerberg give his commencement speech were treated with a blessing.

Knowledge is something that can always be obtained. There is no end to the knowledge that the world possesses for us. However, what is this knowledge worth if it isn’t used to make someone else’s life better? Mark Zuckerburg’s (I’ll refer to him as Mark for the remainder of this story) first quote covers the whole topic of this story:

Create not to make progress,
but to make purpose.

– Mark Zuckerberg 

It’s natural for us to want something for ourselves. That is our natural instinct. My work, my life, my money. That’s okay.

Mark wanted to capitalize more on the topic but explaining how this generation will have its defining works. I agree, many jobs will soon be automated, will require new skills, and will require much more empathy. What do you mean? It’s fairly clear if you take the time to understand the issue today. The world is changing drastically, as you read – climate change and the rise in discrimination. 

Work should always evolve. As we move into a more advanced technological future, there are more discoveries of methods towards making the world a greener place. Solar panels, electric cars, etc. We must move away from the old and bring the new. What’s worse, we could be holding back the key to our future by causation of limitation.

It’s terrible to hear stories of hate, for example, an African American individual being stabbed to death by another Caucasian American, just days before graduation. American. I used one word to declare the identity of these two individuals. Instead of the hate, why can’t we learn to help one another, to succeed as individuals so that we may succeed as a country. Only we, as humans in this world, can build a better world so that our grandchildrens’ children will be able to look back in history and dream for an even better future. To have the opportunities of going to school without descrimination. To have opportunity to work without descrimination. To live without descrimination. In order to make a change, we must be able to work together instead of  worrying more about another persons skin color, the way they dress, or the way they speak. To work as one. 

At the end of the day, the world will decay with hate unless we change for the better. We can stop the negativity and maybe, just maybe, that one day we will have a solution to problems. The world limits itself when a life is taken, when someone isn’t able to receive an education, or when no opportunists are given. Les brown, an amazingly strong and well-spoken motivational speaker says:

The graveyard is the richest place on earth, because it is here that you will find all the hope and dreams that were never fulfilled, the books that were never written, the songs that were never sung, the inventions that were never shared, the cures that were never discovered….

– Les Brown

If you have heard this before, this was meant for those who were afraid to take a leap of faith, to get their foot in the door, and to make an effort. But no. I believe this saying goes deeper than just that. Maybe that kid that was stabbed to death could’ve been the man who could change the world – but we will never know because we have created a limitation for him. Stopped him from doing so because his life has experienced an unfortunate end. Stop the limitations, help one another, and learn to make a purpose together.

Change starts locally

-Mark Zuckerberg

It can start in our neighborhood, to the cities, and eventually reach to the world. It’s as simple as simple can get. Why do we make it so hard for each other? Why must we teach a younger generation that it’s okay to just take this shit. It’s disgusting and humiliating as a race, the human race, to induce hatred. As I digress, it must be known that it isn’t too late. We can stop it now. Let’s change the world for the good.  For the better. Again, great speech Mark. May the world take this message and share your emotions so that one day, we can all feel safe in harmony – in this world.

Tomato Soup

6 months. At this job. I enjoy my environment!

Stopped by the Cafe today and was asked for what I was looking to eat today. Typically, this week, I would order the soup of the week to help me cope with my coughing. As I go to pay, the lady of the counter has told me that I don’t have to pay and to enjoy the soup.

At first, I thought I feel asleep at my desk because this never happens. She understood the stress I was undergoing with the sickness and she asked if I could only pay it forward. I am appalled. She doesn’t know my name, or anything about me but was willing to offer me the soup (and extra saltine crackers! *cue happiness*).

It comes to show that there are people in this world willing to care for others. 

Keep fighting on, and don’t give up hope. Crappy days do happen to everyone and there will be times that you feel like you should need to go on any further. You would ask yourself “What’s the point?” Or “Does it even matter?” Which, the truth is, you know the answers to these questions. They are rhetorical, but you hope to have someone answer the questions for you.

The world isn’t all that cold. Escape from your box and find those answers, because at the end of the day – the lady will be waiting, to give you your soup.

Late Night Marauder

A little late on my post, I presume. However, who isn’t fashionably late? 

A lot has been going on in my mind, to where I am understanding more about how happy I am in my current situation. Before I begin, I never expected to tell anyone about this because I expected criticism in the lines of being a failure and such. Who gives a shit? As long as you are happy, work hard, and you are able to contribute your happiness and support to others – I believe that can stand for success.

Back to what I was about to announce – I am a college dropout, I have a Government job, I own a home and car, and I am 21. Let’s break this down a little more. WHAT.

What was I thinking dropping out of college? For short, I wasn’t really interested in school. Now, to many of you, it seems like a stupid idea. Honestly, at the time, I was thinking the same thing. What gave me a bit of hope was my older brother telling me “This is your life. There are many people that have done well in life and haven’t gotten a diploma – but those exact people are the 1 percenters of the world.” This goes back to my favorite saying (this is mine, I don’t need to cite shit), from my last story, “my path, my pace.” I believed that I had a better future than to just pay my way to earning a piece of paper that will say my name and not guarantee a job. So what did you do? I worked my ass off, got myself an internship, worked even harder, and stumbled my way into government work. 

I work and make a pretty good living. Doesn’t mean that I’m going to stop here. I just need to gain more experience and work harder. There might be a time where I will have to blossom and pursue a different company that can support me. However, I do a great job and the work is in a field I am knowledgeable in. Getting this job was hard. I applied to dozens and dozens of jobs before getting a call back – finding out that they were interested in what I can provide (with my skills and knowledge from my internship). Nevertheless, after many interviews, three weeks roll by and I was awarded the job! My beautiful girlfriend sat right next to me, in my car, listening to the job offer voicemail. Take as many attempts as you possibly can in life. It may not work the first time, but it sure as hell will work one day.

I own a home and a car. These are great accomplishments, but mainly I purchased this home for my mom and the car was a gift to myself (as seen in the pictures). My mom has been working hard her whole life, taking care of my brothers and I. Ladies and gentleman, she worked three jobs just to take care of baby me. If that doesn’t say hard work and dedication, than I don’t know what is. Sadly, many of us were or are still in this situation. I want to tell you that it is okay and it will continue to be okay. One day, you’ll realize that your hard work has paid off and that you’ll feel empowered to want to do more, and to give back. Use your situation as your fuel and drive towards your dreams.

Age, really, has nothing to do with anything.  I have been in tough situations, was (and still am) mentored by my hardworking family, and I have been broke. You start to appreciate life a bit more with nothing to your name. My piece of advice for you is to work your ass off, take as many attempts as you possibly can until you succeed, and use your situation to drive towards your dreams. Follow your path, and your pace.