Be open to decisions and understand

You will experience forms of negativity throughout your life. You will be afraid and that’s okay. There are others that share the same experience. Unfortunately, very few suppress the negativity. Instead, they reinforce it. There is no benefit. There is no purpose. There is only disappointment. You will never understand why it “needs” to be reinforced.

Fuck them. It’s cancer; how these people exist and think it is okay. Don’t confuse negativity with criticism or debate. There are always improvements that are necessary or valid points that are being made. But, to those who just think that everything you know or do is what everyone wants or thinks – that’s sad.

Not everything I say or do is correct. That’s okay, I’m open to hear what people think. I will try to understand you, as you, hopefully, try to understand me, and this is where a decision can develop. You can still choose to support your side, or you can choose the other. Either way, there is no wrong answer as long as you respect those who don’t have the same choice as you do. This shouldn’t result in hatred, fear, anger, or any correlated feelings. Just understand, and be able to move on. It’s okay. You have finally begun to understand why someone doesn’t want what you want.

Lets move away from negativity.

Decisions. Sometimes hard to make, many times very easy. But have you ever feel a time where you made a decision that you didn’t make yourself? As a kid, choosing your starting 5 when playing basketball at recess, or maybe what type of friends you want to have?

I feel like I was lucky. I met this goofy kid, while working in retail, but we worked different departments. I usually like to say hello to the new people who get hired because it helps with the communication as work (Which is necessary 100% of the time). Who knew that I would end up friends with this guy through a video game; in fact, a game that I never wanted at first. Destiny, on the midnight release, was bigger than I thought. Lots of people came into the store and purchased the game. We happened to sell a lot of energy drinks too (Not surprised). At the end of the shift, my coworkers went to buy their copies and recommended that I should get it. As reluctant as I was, I didn’t want to buy it. However, I somehow became very open to getting the game once I found out almost all of my coworkers had it. So, I said screw it…. and we played 15 hours straight. Dumbest and best decision I ever made.

Back to the goofy kid, we became better friends and was able to get to know his group of friends. The one thing that brought them all together? Cars. Another thing I was skeptical about. I loved cars as a kid and unfortunately lost interest growing up. However, after seeing everyone very happy and proud of the cars they owned, i said screw it… bought a new car the following day and never looked back. Long story short, those group of friends are now my very good friends and it’s nice to share a common interest.

Sure, I did make the decision to do all of these things; However, I also didn’t make any decisions at all – where I pretty much went with the flow. I was open to decision at these times, where I built my own curiosity. The “What if?” thing. Don’t be afraid to go with the flow. Sometimes, a decision is being made in front of you – and you unconsciously force a different decision. Be open to decisions, and understand those decisions. To the decision that you didn’t make, understand that decision and why you didn’t choose that one. Either way, you have made a decision and you continue on with life. Easy processes, no negativity, happy life.

What’s to come

Yesterday. A memory for us all now. We never know how the future will be for us all. We can only try our best today so that we can look back to a memorable yesterday and a brighter tomorrow. 

Tomorrow. Things can never happen if we keep telling ourselves that we will try our best “tomorrow.” That’s not good enough. You are lying to yourself. Eventually, tomorrow may never come. And you will regret it. I have, plenty times in my life. One after the other, my opportunities passed by as someone else was willing to say “today.” Enough is enough. This is my word. 

Today. This is my path, and this has given me a pace. Better late than never. Get up, be prepared for what’s to come, and execute. You may stumble upon some difficulties through the day, and that is okay. These are obstacles that will pave the road for tomorrow. The rest, they say, is history.

Stay tuned.

Tomato Soup

6 months. At this job. I enjoy my environment!

Stopped by the Cafe today and was asked for what I was looking to eat today. Typically, this week, I would order the soup of the week to help me cope with my coughing. As I go to pay, the lady of the counter has told me that I don’t have to pay and to enjoy the soup.

At first, I thought I feel asleep at my desk because this never happens. She understood the stress I was undergoing with the sickness and she asked if I could only pay it forward. I am appalled. She doesn’t know my name, or anything about me but was willing to offer me the soup (and extra saltine crackers! *cue happiness*).

It comes to show that there are people in this world willing to care for others. 

Keep fighting on, and don’t give up hope. Crappy days do happen to everyone and there will be times that you feel like you should need to go on any further. You would ask yourself “What’s the point?” Or “Does it even matter?” Which, the truth is, you know the answers to these questions. They are rhetorical, but you hope to have someone answer the questions for you.

The world isn’t all that cold. Escape from your box and find those answers, because at the end of the day – the lady will be waiting, to give you your soup.