Episode 175

Please do not read this is you are planning to watch the Naruto series! I warn you, there are plenty of spoilers below.

Naruto. A name you hear about a lot when kids speak about it, or maybe a millennial brings up their childhood, or maybe you just love eating Ramen. Either way, you may have heard this name once or twice in your life.

Yep, Naruto Uzumaki. This show has really shown a lot of imagery that could very well mirror the everyday events of today – almost as if it was foreshadowed by the creators. Nonetheless, the positive messages taught in this show give it its full value and is what makes this anime a great one to watch.

For those who are currently watching, keep going. For those who haven’t started, give it a chance. You’ll see it more than just a cartoon, but as a show with meaning. The episode I quote above made me truly believe in the power of Naruto’s story and how it can relate to the everyday struggles of depression.

Depression can be derive from any source. This could be from a breakup you had, maybe you just got let go of work, maybe you are anxious about how you look and you think people don’t like you. Sometimes it’s a battle against yourself. Naruto, as a child, has to face this reality. A boy who grew up with no parents and was a delinquent. He made trouble and started to act up because all he wanted was attention. Most of his classmates will never understand his true feelings because they have the blessing of parents that take care of them and motivate them.

In today’s society, we never take into account about what other people might be going through – whether they shows signs of depression or not. Naruto learned to hold a smile in the midst of all of the hatred he received. Kids called him weird, dumb, stupid, for what? Because he didn’t have parents? This isn’t a choice that children get to have. Naruto didn’t. I didn’t. My brothers haven’t. Many of my friends haven’t. It starts off tough.

Specifically and Metaphorically, Naruto fights “Pain” as his enemy in episode 175. Pain is a character whom was a refugee during the great ninja war (could be compared to world war 1). He fended for him and his friends, stealing food to eat, living in caves, etc. Anything he could do to help l, he would. He lost his parents during the Great War, where as a group of The enemy Shinobi (Ninja) broke into their home, although it was clear that the Pain and the family should have vacated the war zone. Pain and his family heard the Shinobi plundering any food they could find in the kitchen. Attempting to sneak out of the home, Pain accidentally alerted the ninja by knocking over a vase as they were escaping. Cautious, the Shinobi rushes to the noise and found his family. Pain’s father attempts to protect the family and gets stabbed in the chest in the process. The mother was later killed and Pain was next. Luckily, Pain has a secret power that worked to kill these Shinobi – the power of the rinnegan. The power of the rinnegan has been told to have similar powers of god, which can be used for destruction or creation, just by the force of power coming from the holder of this power.

Fast forward, back to the fight between Naruto and Pain, Naruto fights and fights and is able to weaken Pain to the point of death. Naruto falls back. He understands that hate is not the correct way to settle things in this world because “hate brings more hate”. Instead, Naruto fought Pain’s with the power of his words. Naruto spoke with Pain, Sympathizes with Pain, and proves to Pain about the dangers of how the world may be if pain and Hatred drives the world. Pain has already killed the many people that Naruto knows and loves and is able to still sympathize with Pain. On his final breath, Pain uses his powers to bring all of the dead back to life. Those who fought against Pain during the fight, who died, has been given a second chance at life.

This is a fictional story. There are times where people may want to hurt or kill, in this world, because they are getting picked on, harassed, or disposed. For those who are currently experiencing this, please keep your head up. Not a day goes by where I look back into the times where I felt this weird feeling… Even in middle school, where I had friends, and still felt as if no one cared. To this day, I am past college and have a small group of friends that loves the things I love. Most importantly, they care, the understand, and they motivate. They are like the friends I have always wished for in my life. Even better, I have a girlfriend who not only wants to better herself, but to better me as well. Not a day goes by where I felt this weird feeling….. of pain and overcome the depths and evil of pain to understand that happiness is found by the little things. Your little group of friends, your relationship, a fun car, etc. Thank you Pain, and most importantly, thank you Happiness.

Just in time for Halloween

I had a wonderful time with my girlfriend this weekend! I had dinner with her family, had plenty of time to study, and even fit in time to finally take care of the “bouncing” issue my car had.

I do apologize for the lack of posts, I have been using a lot of time to work on my programming and I have done more work in two weeks than I could ever do in a semester in class. Needless to say, I have plenty of stories to tell.

I hope everyone has been enjoying life so far and thank you for your patience!

Two years

The big TWO. I have gotten to a point in my life where I realize that I am growing up. 

Backtrack to a younger me, I made plenty of mistakes and I am glad to have had those experience to learn and grow. My beautiful girlfriend entered into my life two years ago, on September 5th, 2015. It all started with an unintentional Skype video chat – I’ll get into details about that at a later time.

With the two years we have been together, I can our relationship is not perfect. We have had fights, unnecessary arguments, and tears shed. We have had wonderful dates, smiles all day, endless laughter, and unconditional love. What we have gone through, these past two year, have built us to where we are now. I have no regrets. I know that being with this girl is the one decision in my life that was right. How do I know? I can feel it in my gut.

Thank you for the wonderful two years, and for many more to come, my beautiful angel. 

Saying Goodbye

It’s a little weird, moving from job to job so quickly. I was just getting very close my coworkers and things we finally picking up after many ideas and decisions. 

Things are looking up for the progress of my career. I get to work at a Fortune 500 company everyday, I have a beautiful girlfriend that supports me every step of the way – going the extra mile by getting her degree and working at the same time, a tough, motivating family that has my back, and you, the reader.

My stories are meant to tell you my experiences of life. What I have gone through or am going through, which may hopefully help those that are trying to find out what to do. It’s not an easy process, believe me. Especially without a degree, but this is where you have to pick it up 100 times more.

I’m blessed, and so should you. You have a chance to live, plenty of time to succeed, and lots of room for error. But hey. I’m just getting started.

Opportunities can come out of nowhere

It’s been a rough few weeks since I have heard about the layoffs at my job. I’m applying left and right, and luckily I got a text from an old friend that interned with me at Discovery. She told me that our old boss was talking about me and was wondering what I was up to. She continued to announce that he had a bit of work for me and wanted to see if I was interested. Obviously, I was.

Its crazy to know that I was on the brink of freaking out because of the constant search for other work opportunities. I guess this is God’s way of saying “Take it easy man. You are still young.” I smiled as I saw the message.

Nonetheless, this is still just an opportunity that will hopefully provide a higher salary for the work. Of course, if I am not blessed with higher pay – I must make the decision to continue my search or to bite the bullet and take the job. In my mind, I am more confident to find better opportunities for similar or more pay if this opportunity is unable to provide that for me. Lets hope that this one is a keeper.

Be open to decisions and understand

You will experience forms of negativity throughout your life. You will be afraid and that’s okay. There are others that share the same experience. Unfortunately, very few suppress the negativity. Instead, they reinforce it. There is no benefit. There is no purpose. There is only disappointment. You will never understand why it “needs” to be reinforced.

Fuck them. It’s cancer; how these people exist and think it is okay. Don’t confuse negativity with criticism or debate. There are always improvements that are necessary or valid points that are being made. But, to those who just think that everything you know or do is what everyone wants or thinks – that’s sad.

Not everything I say or do is correct. That’s okay, I’m open to hear what people think. I will try to understand you, as you, hopefully, try to understand me, and this is where a decision can develop. You can still choose to support your side, or you can choose the other. Either way, there is no wrong answer as long as you respect those who don’t have the same choice as you do. This shouldn’t result in hatred, fear, anger, or any correlated feelings. Just understand, and be able to move on. It’s okay. You have finally begun to understand why someone doesn’t want what you want.

Lets move away from negativity.

Decisions. Sometimes hard to make, many times very easy. But have you ever feel a time where you made a decision that you didn’t make yourself? As a kid, choosing your starting 5 when playing basketball at recess, or maybe what type of friends you want to have?

I feel like I was lucky. I met this goofy kid, while working in retail, but we worked different departments. I usually like to say hello to the new people who get hired because it helps with the communication as work (Which is necessary 100% of the time). Who knew that I would end up friends with this guy through a video game; in fact, a game that I never wanted at first. Destiny, on the midnight release, was bigger than I thought. Lots of people came into the store and purchased the game. We happened to sell a lot of energy drinks too (Not surprised). At the end of the shift, my coworkers went to buy their copies and recommended that I should get it. As reluctant as I was, I didn’t want to buy it. However, I somehow became very open to getting the game once I found out almost all of my coworkers had it. So, I said screw it…. and we played 15 hours straight. Dumbest and best decision I ever made.

Back to the goofy kid, we became better friends and was able to get to know his group of friends. The one thing that brought them all together? Cars. Another thing I was skeptical about. I loved cars as a kid and unfortunately lost interest growing up. However, after seeing everyone very happy and proud of the cars they owned, i said screw it… bought a new car the following day and never looked back. Long story short, those group of friends are now my very good friends and it’s nice to share a common interest.

Sure, I did make the decision to do all of these things; However, I also didn’t make any decisions at all – where I pretty much went with the flow. I was open to decision at these times, where I built my own curiosity. The “What if?” thing. Don’t be afraid to go with the flow. Sometimes, a decision is being made in front of you – and you unconsciously force a different decision. Be open to decisions, and understand those decisions. To the decision that you didn’t make, understand that decision and why you didn’t choose that one. Either way, you have made a decision and you continue on with life. Easy processes, no negativity, happy life.

Legsport Duckbill Install

Finally. The day has come to install this beauty. Below, I will go over every step I took to install the Legsport Duckbill (since no one has made a DIY yet.)


I will also post this DIY to the FT86 forum for a second reference.

Things you will need for the installation:

  • Microfiber Cloth(s)
  • Detailing Spray (Meguiar’s: Quik Detailer)
  • 3M double-sided mounting tape (Might be provided with purchase of Duckbill)
  • Optional: A friend to help
  • Time of Install: 5 – 30 minutes

Step One: Clean and make sure that no residue or packaging material is on the Duckbill. I suggest using Meguiar’s: Quik Detailer and a microfiber cloth (shown in step three). These will do the best job possible for getting anything off the Duckbill.

Step two: Prepare the duckbill by taping along the edges and curve crease. Be prepared to use all the tape provided! As you can see, I was given enough tape just to tape the important parts of the Duckbill, so please follow my tape pattern for optimal fitment.


Step 3: Once Duckbill has been prepped, proceed to clean the surface area of the trunk to prevent from any residue getting onto the tape of the Duckbill. We don’t want anything getting in the way and create a pocket for wind to get in! Again, I recommend Meguiar’s: Quik Detailer and a microfiber cloth to clean this area.


Step 4: Now that you have the surface cleaned, Duckbill cleaned and prepped with tape, and your helping buddy is ready – you can now proceed with placing the Duckbill onto the trunk. Be sure to remove the tape cover before placing the Duckbill on the trunk. This is where teamwork and communication is needed so that the Duckbill is placed on properly.

Step 4.1: I’m sure most of us may not have a buddy available to help and are doing the install ourselves. That is okay! I did this install myself and was relieved to know that this install was easy. Before removing the tape cover, place the Duckbill onto the trunk and position accordingly. Once positioned, lift the duckbill slightly so that you can remove the tape cover as you are firmly pressing the Duckbill onto the trunk.


Step 5: VIOLA! You have successfully installed your new Legsport FR-S/BRZ/TOYOTA86 Duckbill. Please be sure to secure the Duckbill by pushing down on the areas taped down to ensure that the tape makes contact with both the trunk and the Duckbill. Apply moderate pressure. I recommend giving the tape 2 – 3 days to settle before going on the roads. Unless you are a Dare Devel like me, you wait a day and drive up to 80 MPH/129 KPM (Legally, of course). Don’t be me.

You might be asking yourself “How does he know how to install Duckbills?” Well, I don’t, but that’s the fun part to modifications! If you have any questions or concerns or possibly made a few mistakes along the way, feel free to contact me and I will answer any questions you have.

RPMs staggering from 1k down to 400

I hate this. Half the time I feel like it’s gonna stall out from me. Don’t buy an FR-S, ladies and gentleman. (Is it an 86 now?…yeah whatever, i’m kidding.)

Maybe this baby needs a tune. I’ve heard about this ridiculous open tablet that can flash the ECU of the car to help with this issue – maybe keep it at a solid 1k. But for $499? You can kiss my sweet ass before I decide to buy that. Looks like I’ve got a lot to research to figure out a cheaper way of tuning my car.

Besides that, I just recently purchased the Fumoto Oil Drain Valve, which I will install very soon because my oil change frequency is very close to car washes, and a secret new part will be coming shortly after!

I’m excited how things are slowly growing for this car and I’m happy to have a group of friends who have a strong passion for cars. Without their help, installations would take long, YouTube would be my only friend, and I’ll magically screw up and turn my car into a piece o’ shit. Luckily that isn’t the case.

Thank you for those who are currently following my build! For those who are slowly coming in, I also appreciate your time and I hope to show you my wonderful work of art! 

Maki Ramen 

This is the first time I have eaten ramen, besides out of a styrofoam cup. It looked very close to what you would see in Naruto. Especially those Narutomaki, those fancy pink and white swirl pads,  it’s fish paste that takes pretty good.

A whole bowl of soup, ramen, mushrooms, half a boiled egg, bulgogi, and a strip of seaweed wrap. One must be crazy to not eat this delicacy.

Maki is quite small, the size of a boba shop, but with all the amazing flavors. This might be our designated ramen shop (I’m lying. I’m always willing to try other places).

If you are in the area, give it a try!

Lardarius Webb Charity Softball Game

Football players playing softball. Quite the show, but a very fun time indeed! The charity helps support family’s with low income/homeless and help with food, finding shelter, paying bills, etc.

It’s good to give. 

Thank you Baltimore Ravens for the awesome game and I hope the best for this upcoming season! All in all, I hope everyone enjoyed their weekend!